Thursday, November 05, 2009

Happy Birthday To The Man I Love!


Today is your birthday , a day I will be forever thankful for.
I want you to know how much you, your love and kindness mean to me. Every day I find another reason why I love you more and more. You make me laugh, and smile. You are ALWAYS there for me, with your love and wisdom. Since the very first moment we "met" I knew you and I were meant to be. Nothing in my life has ever felt so right. All I am and all I'll ever be is reflected in your eyes. If I can make you just half as happy as you have made me , we will be the happiest couple around. I want to give you everything and anything I can. I want to make you smile, sigh with contentment, hold you when the world has been unkind, to smile at you in a way that makes you know you ARE loved and cherished above ALL else. Know you can count on me to be your best friend , your confidant, your buddy, your lover, and your wifey. For every birthday and every other holiday we will celebrate together and make our own traditions. Till then know I adore my handsome man. Happy Birthday baby. I love you so much more than love. You are the light of my life.
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With all that other mushy Hallmark crap that you hate but I love.
I LOVE YOU my birthday man.
xxxxoo

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

A Little Breather

ahhhh, finally i can breathe a little. i just want to thank everyone who has given me support over the last few weeks. it's been a hectic but incredibly satisfying time and i'm lucky to have amazing people around me. I haven't slept much in the past 2 days, but feel normally energized. I may possibly having a hypomanic or a beginning of a manic episode. maybe not. But that is okay, you just need to come and follow me around more and see some of the fun things I find myself in the middle of around this funny planet of ours.



Last night's event was A BLAST.
Kudos to all the crew ! And I want all of them to realize that it was all worth it. I don't think anyone's in any doubt about how hard people worked - including yourself, Mayee! so thanks again to everyone - your tireless efforts are greatly appreciated. Cheers!


Anyway, here's some pics from last nite event -
The Kawasaki KLX150S Launch @ Sunway Convention Centre.

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So can you see why my blogging has been lacking lately? Rest assured there is no lack of adventures to write about. Everytime I sit down here to try and write something I come up blank. It is rather frustrating to say the least. I just don't know what to plop down here.


The next one's around the corner - Shahrukh Khan Fan Club soft launch

And I'll be meeting both Shahrukh Khan & Tun Mahathir tomorrow night. STARSTRUCK!


"Renee, please don't wear too sexy for tomorrow nite's event, Tun Mahathir wont like it" - mr.bossman

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Friday, October 30, 2009

FRIDAY I'M IN LOVE

No storm is so bad that you can't learn something from it.

You can grow in a storm. You can thrive. Rain cleans the air.



# I am reminded of many things that I am grateful for. The economy is still troublesome. We have been affected by it in many ways, but it certainly has helped me focus on what is good around me and I remain optimistic and hopeful about the future.

#I welcome the change. Change is very good and change is coming. I think you have to get on board and embrace change or you will be left far behind.#Went for a hair make over yesterday! It's now 3 shades darker & 3"inches shorter! The reason I got it done was because it was really bright n blond. And I've been growing it out. It might look nice and healthy in my photos but it's been breaking off and it's damaged. I had to go get it fixed! So finally I took sometime off and went to the saloon yesterday and got it fixed. I have to stop messing with my hair! But it's what girls do!


# Unless you've been sleeping under a rock for the last couple of weeks you would now know its the Halloween weekend. Halloween packs a more spooktacular punch this year for some reasons. Plus, it's on a Saturday, so you have all day to get freaky.


#I have 3 Halloween Parties and 1 Musical Show to attend this weekend. Its gonna be fun fun fun.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Let Go Let God

The past few weeks really sucked for me.
It seems that everything I've done in the past two or three weeks has ended up turning out pretty damn lousy.

I have at various times turned here when i didn't have anyone to say what i wanted to say to. And i'm not sure that that's as horrible as it feels. But it feels pretty disappointing. I don't know that even if i talked to more people i would have a solution to this problem. Part of me doubts there's a person in the world i would tell something like that to.

That's not their problem. it's fundamentally mine.
At some point in the past i decided that it was to much to put myself out there.


***

After trying everything to try and “cure” my anxiety,
I now realize that I need to just allow it to try and stop me living. It never will!

Great one week, bad the next, good weeks, bad weeks, but I never complained.
It was awful at times and frustrating and got me down, but I had total faith that this was the process that I needed to go through. Many people refuse to accept this and keep looking for outside things to make it better, that one magic sentence that will make it all go away. I can tell you I completely stopped looking for anything to ‘make it go away’ I realised that this was not where the answer would come from.

At one time I falsely thought that I could think my way better, that I needed to hide away until I had finally ’sorted this this thing out’ What I really needed to do was just live alongside it and stop letting it have such an affect on me, to change my attitude and live alongside it without letting it control my life for me. Instead of letting it stop me living, live and try and let it stop me.

I don't sleep well at night. Nothing move, motivates, or excites me.
I just simply feel so flippin! Worse of all, I have become content with being discontent.
I write this to set the intention of having an overwhelming passion and committment to do something with my life larger than the limitations of my mind and ego.

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Until I came across this passage in the Bible that really spoke to me.

"Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof." Matthew 6:34

To me it is a very simple, but strong message.
I guess all i should/could do now is casting all my anxiety on Him, because He cares for me.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

THE SHEPHERDOO


T'was in Klang last Friday evening for the Grand Opening of 'The Shepherdoo'.
I was the Emcee for the night. To be honest, I couldn't recall when was the last time I hosted a big event like this and boi was i nervous!
And the crowd turned out that night was massive! I was a lil kan-cheong at first but it gets better as the show goes on!
The Shepherdoo is a modern Latin American Restaurant & Bar. Owh the Fajitas, Burritos & Cocktails, they were all yums!

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The Shepherdoo
NO 8, JALAN BATU TIGA LAMA 41300 KLANG SELANGOR DARUL EHSAN MALAYSIA.
TEL: 603-3341 2011 FAX: 603-3343 2011.
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Garden Concept Restaurant. vair zen.
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& ze Bar area.
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Props to Muse Entertainment.
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ME & JESS.
Jess is an amazing Live Band singer. Who is also cousin of Mandy, a great friend of mine. love her voice!


pics all taken via my BlackBerry.

xoxo

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

MotoGP 2009


I’m back. So glad it’s over.
Twas at Sepang over the weekend pimpin' the chicas for Kawasaki.
Sun-Rain-Sun-Rain. Stressing like a motha! Nonetheless, all my models were vair well-behaved & they did a fantabulosa job!

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me & maye
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mama-san roamin' around Sepang.
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Ee-Jin chompin' down the pizzas
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Joycelyn pretendin' to be all lady-like! teehee
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with Uncle Josh
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right before the rain
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i heart Nicky Hayden!
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with Emmy Carter
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James & Chris dropped by to hola!
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James & Chris
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Maye & Ben workin' hard *cough*
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and here comes the rain.
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em' babies of mine
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one shot with ze mama-san
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ze-end

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Do you know what it feels like to know you're stressed, but not actually feel stressed?
That's how I feel lately. I know I'm stressed, but I don't feel overly stressed or anything. I mean, I'm not like having anxiety, or freaking out in any way. I just know I'm stressed. Mostly because I'm breaking out like a teenager, my ulcer is back and my insomnia is creeping it's sneaky little fucker like ways back into my nights.

So yeah. The stress is there and I can see it, I just don't feel it per se.
Perhaps the reason I don't feel it is because I can see the good and the exciting things ahead as well?

I think I'm a pretty optimistic person, almost to the point of delusional. So I'm really excited about what the future holds and I'm trying to not be so stressed. I just wish my "half glass full" self would tell my ulcer, my pimples and my insomnia, "don't worry, bout a thing... cause every little thing, is gonna be alright..."

Friday, October 23, 2009

How are we, my Friday feathered friends?

Yesterday I learnt about how annoying deliciously ironic it is that the thing that sucks most can so often end up morphing into the best thing that ever happened (even though at the time it was awful and we still wouldn’t do it again).


--- I’ve had to get over my dislike of asking for help.

Of course asking for help is something I’m constantly advising other people to do.

I just don’t like doing it myself. And now I’ve had to. A lot.

You find out who your friends are when you can’t operate a pair of tweezers. :)

Seriously. I’ve had to lean on my friends. To test how much my gentleman friend can put up with me (answer: a lot)


--- I get stuff done. Like a madwoman.

When you can only work a little, you do it right.

In the past few weeks I’ve finished projects that normally would have taken way, way longer. Because I’m focused. I have to be.

In fact, there’s no time not to be.

We’ve transformed the way everyone on my team communicates with each other.

It’s knocking me out. In a good way.


--- What do you do when you feel like dirt.

Even though I have no idea why I feel like dirt, this is where I am right now and baby, that’s how it is. For now. Not forever. Just right now.

This feeling of dirt doesn’t define me. It’s not the whole of who I am. It’s just the thing I’m dealing with right now. Even though I hate feeling like dirt, I’m allowed to hate it as much as I want.

Wow. No kidding. Of course you feel like dirt after X happened. That’s a really hard thing to go through. And you’re catching up on sleep. Andyou’ve been dealing with all these other things. And things are changing in your life like crazy now. Who wouldn’t feel like dirt right now?

This is my personal definition of feeling like dirt. And now that I know what it looks like or sounds like or feels like, I can recognize it when it comes up.

Even though I have no idea how long it will take to stop feeling like dirt, I’m going to give myself as much support as I can stand right now. And I’m reminding myself that I am not my thoughts and feelings.

I am larger than all of my thoughts and feelings. I am the being that brings these thoughts and feelings into existence, and I can learn to interact with them instead of being the innocent bystander who keeps getting knocked over by them.

Sure, this too shall pass and all that. But in the meantime — while I’m in it — I’m willing to receive whatever support I can. I am willing to get better at accessing hidden sources of support that fit what I need.

I’m ready for support and kindness from the people in my life … and in the meantime, I’m going to practice giving it to myself because that’s where it starts.


What I would love: thoughts, musings, reactions related to the stuff I’m talking about and the sovereignty thing in general.

What I’d rather not have: critique of the topic, to have my stuff judged or psychoanalyzed, advice.


That's it.

It’s a lot. It’s enough.


Tuesday, October 20, 2009

LOVE IN BANGKOK Part Vll

So after a long day chilling at Sirocco, CY & I got ourselves a cab at the State Tower.
At first the taxi driver seemed to be a really nice guy. Plus, he speaks fluent English too! After awhile, He started talking to us about tailors & suits, asking if we would like to visit some local tailors n stuff like that. Politely we rejected him, He kept going on and on, asking us to do him a favour by following him to some tailor shop just so he could get some commission.

At one point He started to get a lil aggressive after his attempts of trying. And this time we told him off firmly that we're not interested to go anywhere with him. I think he got a lil pissed off at us, he suddenly stopped his cab at one side of the road and told us we've reached our destination

And so we paid 100 baht and got off the cab.
and tadaaa. we're at Patpong!

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The place has more flashy neons and interesting sign boards than the whole of downtown KL.
Thai girl, Thai boy, lady boy, go-go bars, you name it, they have it. There is also a lot of street stores selling “I love Bangkok” T-shirts and imitation Bell & Ross watches. As we were walking along the shops, we were ushered by many pimps asking if we wanted beer, shows, etc. We kept rejecting them. My only advice is don't ever listen to touts at patpong if you want an annoying-free time.

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We left Patpong in less than 30 mins and went to some sportswear centre!
And i got myself an awesome pair of Converse for 1200 baht! (rm 120)
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waitin for our late nite train, my kuli boi almost pengsan!
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stuff i got from rama road, Patpong and random 7E:-
Converse shoes, awesome 4" heels, Pocky [25 baht] and some other junkies. In Thailand, a box of Pocky is only cost about rm2.50. But here in Malaysia, they retail for about RM10 per box! and they don’t carry some of the funkier ones like the white chocolate coated sticks coated with another layer of dark chocolate on top (yummy!)
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woke up at 10am the next day, its our last day in BKK.
Our flight is at 9pm at night but we have to check out from out from our hotel room at 12pm.
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nom nom nom. fried seaweed is shiznit!
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Here we go againnn. We checked out from the Hotel at 12pm, left our Luggage at the Hotel Lobby.
Both me and cy still have about 10,000 baht (rm 1000) to spend and so we decided to go back to Platinum Fashion City Mall to finish all our Thai Moolah!In less than 2 hours, we have about only 4000 baht left ! LOL. Decided to grab some lunch before we leave Platinum!
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awesome beef noodle at Platinum Food Court! [40 baht]
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Took a tuk tuk back to Siam and met up with my Thai colleague at Siam Paragon, Pon.
Pass him some work stuff and fetched some coffee at Starbucks!
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i love my boi.
he gelled so well with my family, all my friends and even my colleagues! We left Paragon at about 4pm.
Went to Rama road to continue with some shoppin and kena one more dose of Auntie Anne's CCB! LOL
And took a BTS back to Ari Station for-u-know-what.
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... one last dose of tomyumkung at my fav! - seed restaurant! yummm.
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Got back to out hotel at 6pm, trying to put all our last minute shopping into our luggage bags.
kenot zip. how now brown cow?
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my hero.
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Put all my junkies in a huge paper bag! Mad love!!

Bangkok is amazing & magical, but there are few things u must beware.

1. Taxi drivers will charge you way over the odds if they think you don't know the going rate.
Always ask them to turn on the meter if they want to agree a price upfront it will be above the going rate!

2. When visiting the main tourist attractions you will see many smartly dressed men in suits even lingering around the sights to try and persuade you that the attraction is closed today or not open until later, many will even point to a closed gate, chances are you are just not at the front enterance.

3. They might also try tell you that your clothing is unacceptable for entrance to the palace etc whereas at most major tourist attractions including the grand palace you can hire appropriate clothing free by leaving a refundable deposit.

4. Don't be deceived by their lies, they will say there is another attraction close buy that they will take you to.

I've never been mislead by them but have heard plenty of stories where people have been fleeced for tour guide fees or taken to the make shift tour guides shops or families shops along the way and encouraged to buy stuff. So be assertive and don't be misguided by anything they may tell you. Check everything out for yourself.

Monday, October 19, 2009

LOVE IN BANGKOK Part VI

Sky Bar @ Sirocco is the highest sky bar that I'd ever been. Located at 64th floor of Lebua State Tower, this place is breathtaking although it could get quite packed at times. With 2 cocktails in hands, Chee Yoong and I spent two good hours there chitchatting while gazing the amazing skyline of Bangkok from the 64th floor. We didn't want to spend all our money on dinner, so we just had a few drinks, but that entitled us to hang out, enjoy the ambiance and fantastic view. The staff ask you at the lift entrance and again when you alight if you're booked for dinner, but it's ok to say you're just having drinks. With the Chao Phraya River right next to the building, we had a fantastic view of the Bangkok night view. It was very windy up there and my dress was almost blown away!

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Sunset @ Sky Bar & Distil (Sirocco)
sweeping views from the top of Bangkok's second tallest building, the State Tower.

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Be ready to spend about 1,200BHT for 2 cocktails but I'd return again whenever I come to Bangkok in the future cause I love the feeling of being of high up, as if I'm touching the sky!

State Tower 1055, Silom Road, Bangrak | (formerly Sky Bar at Sirocco), Bangkok 10500, ThailandTel: 66 2624 9555Fax: 66 2624 9554

Friday, October 16, 2009

LOVE IN BANGKOK Part V

One of the highlight of my visit was afternoon tea in Arthur's Lounge, a very special place to visit, don't miss it. From the moment you walk into the foyer, you know you have come to a special place.and it was so beautiful with gorgeous detail everywhere.

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front.
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lefty.
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righty.

The Oriental Hotel Bangkok ( which is now named Mandarin Oriental to come into line with other hotels in this world-famous chain of Luxury Hotels ) with beautiful Shophouse architecture along the way.

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complimentary lime & rum sorbet.
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English Hi Tea Set @ Author's Lounge. [990 baht]
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ze best Iced Cappuccino @ Author's Lounge, Mandarin Oriental Hotel. [270 baht]
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CY's Earl Grey.
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super cosy. I'm so gonna turn the 2nd floor living in our new house into something like this =)
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yum.
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my clean-shaved boi

Simply splendid and romantic I can tell you, Folks! We had gotten a beautiful place with perfect views onto the garden and the other people for some watching. The Service and presentation was simply sublime all the way we were there for around 2 hours.

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boomshagalaga
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'em cutie pies.
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nyom nom nom
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so pretty!
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reading room
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l love my dress! got it for rm15 at Platinum! =)
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main lobby.

We had a superb and enjoyable time at this hotel and hope sincerly at one time in our life when the time is right to stay here and enjoy more of this hotel in classic surroundings in the heart of Bangkok by the River of The Kings!
Please remember, FLY, STAY, EXPLORE! MORE!

xoxo